Keep Going (A message of hope, a sad poem of living)

You will know happiness,

you will know peace,

you will know love,

and you will live.

You will win.

Do things feel impossible 
already? 
Do you feel that nothing is worth 
fighting for 
anymore? 
Do you feel that letting it be, 
giving up, quitting, 
will make it all go away? 
Ease things for you? 
Don't do it. 
Do not give up. 
Do not lose hope. 
Do not stop. 
Do not let it be, 
if you wouldn't be happy 
with as is.  
Keep fighting. 
Keep living. 
Keep going. 
Keep going. 

It is just the second week 
of January. 
It feels like December again, 
like we have lived through 
a whole year, 
already. 
Only, 
picking up troubles, 
counting losses, 
and drowning 
on the weight of our souls, 
already. 
It all feels heavy, really. 
I have wanted to quit, 
already. 
I have wanted to sit in some corner, 
shut the world up, 
and cry, 
and just feel sorry for my life, 
which doesn't feel mine, 
anymore. 
And cry. 
Perhaps, 
forget I exist? 
But how can I, 
with all the tears? 
How I wish I could! 
Oh, 
how they burn me inside and out; 
they burn all the way down 
my cheeks. 
My poor soul aches 
for a year that feels so wrong, 
and yet so right 
at the same time. 
How I know this year 
I will win! 
How I know 
I will know 
pure happiness, 
this year! 
How I know 
I will know 
pure peace, 
this year! 
I know. 
I know, 
looking at my scars 
of the new year. 
I know, 
even as I break, 
and wish I could just break 
all the way, 
more. 
I know. 

So, I must hold on. 
And you must hold on. 
You know it, too. 
Deep down, 
you know, 
you will win. 
Of course, you will! 
You know, 
you will know happiness. 
Of course, it is yours! 
You know, 
you will know peace, 
and you will love it, 
truly. 
Pure peace is yours, 
and you know it. 
You must hold on. 
Hold on, 
keep going, 
keep living. 

We may all want 
different things, 
in the end. 
We may not all 
always get what we want. 
But close your eyes, 
sometimes. 
Think about all you have. 
Do not forget the breath 
you draw, 
and your shut eyes, 
and your ability to think. 
Are those enough 
to say "Thank you?" 
There is more, 
and you know. 

Hold on. 
It is just the start of the year— 
we are bidding bye 
its second week. 
Does it feel like hell, 
already? 
Does it feel like the end? 
Would you rather not see it 
to whichever end 
is meant for you? 
Does it feel worthless? 
Does it feel inexplicable 
in a painful way? 
In a sad way? 
It is okay. 

You do not get to choose. 
You do not get to dictate 
how your days turn out. 
You do not enjoy the luxury 
of foresight. 
You get to live. 
You get to make choices 
you can control— 
you can accept what you cannot, 
or you can burden yourself 
fighting everything 
and for everything. 
You get to move, 
even when it feels impossible— 
you have life, 
you thus have a chance. 
Keep going. 
Keep going. 
Keep going. 

Difficulties are there to test you, 
and they will test you. 
Setbacks are there to allow you 
to know where you are 
and where you can get to. 
Your failures and your losses 
are among many things, 
reminders of how much you tried 
and how much more you can. 
By choosing to hold on, 
to keep going, 
you are winning 
in many little ways. 
Remember, 
you will win, 
this year, 
and deep down, 
you know it 
or you should. 
You will know happiness, 
you will know peace, 
you will know love, 
and you will live. 
You will win. 

Hold on, 
and keep going. 
Hold on, 
and keep going. 
Hold on, 
and keep going. 

©BenieLangat, 2022. 

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I wrote this on January 08, but didn’t get a chance to share it, until today.

Hold on and keep going.

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