Untethered Soul

To feel and to let go, to live. 

I want to free my soul 
of the pains of yesterday, 
and, before fighting anything, 
feel all that today presents. 

I want to free my soul 
of regrets of the gone, 
and say nothing 
of my trials and my fails. 

I want to free my soul 
of the fear of trying, born 
of the fear of failing, 
and understand 
trials and failures 
as lessons, as growth. 

I want to free my soul 
of shame, of guilt, 
and own my words, as my acts, 
and listen to my voice, 
and learn to discern 
good from horrible counsel. 

I want to free my soul 
of hate, of the misguides 
of vexation and impulse, 
and afford myself 
a moment of calm, 
a moment of breath, 
and a moment 
of conscious thought. 

I want to free my soul 
of wants beyond, of desire, 
and only look undeterred 
at the sky and the stars, 
and only pursue, undeterred, 
my dreams and more dreams. 

As for all in the past, 
as of the pains of yesterday, 
and regrets of the gone, 
and, as for shame, guilt, 
as for hate, vexation 
as for desire, 
I want to be free. 

And since I am human, 
and will, inevitably, 
feel it all, 
I should understand, 
it is okay to feel, 
and it is healthy to let go. 

I want to learn to resist 
nothing I cannot control, 
and like the trees to the wind, 
sway to the flow of life, 
and like the waters of the ocean, 
move with smashing might 
(even in uncertainties), 
and like a firm rock, 
stand my ground. 
I want to learn to stand 
my ground. 

I want to fly like the birds, 
yet, leave not my body 
(this vessel, my grounding). 
I want to roar like the waves, 
calm, intermittent, 
yet deep, like a lion. 

I want to touch the sky 
with my heart, 
and kiss the earth 
with my feet. 

I want to exist in the air, 
like free particles, 
move with no effort, 
and propelled by passion. 

I want to breathe life, and speak life, 
create, revive, save, and be saved. 
I want it all in this life, 
I want it all in every now. 

©Benie_Langat_2021

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