Old Friend

I remember.
I remember you and I;
They were good times,
The old times—
If we could go back!
If we could relive
Every moment,
Now…
Oh, if we could.

I loved
That you
Had a way,
Always,
You’d put a smile
On my face,
A laugh
From the heart;
Often,
Every day.
I find it
Sad now—
I have been
Sitting here
For a while now,
Looking back
At the past month,
And months,
And year,
And years…
How sad,
Oh,
How sad;
These tears
That now flow
Two ways,
Bitter,
And endless,
Flow
Because of you.

What happened
To every beautiful thing
We had?
The beauty
We cultivated
In every moment,
Together;
Oh,
What happened?

I remember.
I remember how they felt like—
Our times together,
When you’d inspire me,
With your
Awesomeness.
You were ever
Perfect
In my eyes;
I thought I too
Was
In yours,
But was I?
Was I ever?

You taught me love,
And taught me
Eternity
In the feeling,
But then,
You left me
Alone,
Where we made
Beautiful memories—
Now,
They burn me
These memories,
Our old moments.

I hate to see you now,
Because
Every time
I remember,
I sadden
At the
Impossibility
Of time travel
For you and I.

What once was inspiration
Has turned
To competition.
I look back,
With tears,
Drowning my heart,
My walls of within,
Crashing
Into each other.
How can I
Compete with you?
For what?
Love was never this
Competition.
But how can I
Look at this?
As detest?
As… loathe?
As… No.
How did we
Ever get here?

I look up at the stars
On beautiful nights—
I feel at home
Up in the sky;
I feel more at home
Than around you,
Than in this place
You taught me
To be home…
I feel more understood
By all I understand
As a mystery.

On bitter nights,
I wonder:
Was I a mistake
To you?
Do I ever make you
Question the heavens
On my existence?
How I can’t help
But feel
Unwanted.

Farewell, then.
Gratitude
Is all my heart
Throws back
At your
Heavy blows—
Thank you.
Farewell, then.
I guess time
Was ever limited.
Goodbye, then.

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